...into my Heart: Swallow the Pill

Updated: Apr 10, 2020

Do you ever go through seasons when it feels like you’ve been sick forever? One bug after another finds its way into your system; or maybe it’s one nasty virus that keeps dragging on and on? This was my scenario for the past month. The bug that my son brought home from school the day before Christmas break spread to the entire extended family who had traveled to be together for the season. Not the most thoughtful Christmas gift our family has ever given away!

Everyone was on the mend by the time we returned home… everyone, except for me. My head was full of pressure, my energy at an all-time low, even my teeth hurt! The virus turned into a sinus infection and antibiotics were prescribed. Within hours of taking my first dose, the relief started to come… a welcomed reprieve after feeling sick for weeks! I realized how much I can’t STAND being physically unhealthy and unproductive. What a gift to have modern medicine help the situation when our bodies can’t fight it alone!

I can’t help but think about the soul-sickness we experience spiritually as we wrestle with sin in our hearts; especially the symptoms we can carry around with us of shame, self-bereavement, frustration, and depression. Untreated, the symptoms only get worse.

Maybe you’ve recently made a mistake, felt stuck in an unhealthy habit, said something you shouldn’t have, or have been made freshly aware of the glory-seeking selfishness in your own heart that goes against everything godly! We know the truth, and still we don’t live it well. With Paul in Romans 7, we cry out, “Wretched man that I am! Who will save me from this body of sin and death?” (verse 24)

To make the situation worse, we read the potent words of Jesus:

“You have heard that it was said to those of old, ‘You shall not murder; and whoever murders will be liable to judgment.’ But I say to you that everyone who is angry with his brother will be liable to judgment; whoever insults his brother will be liable to the council; and whoever says, ‘You fool!’ will be liable to the hell of fire.’ (Matthew 5:21-22)

Jesus is explaining our desperate situation – INSULTING someone is as erroneous as murdering someone when referring to the guilt of sin. By definition, sin is “missing the mark of perfection.”

Jesus goes on to reiterate, “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery.’ But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart. If your right eye causes you to sin, tear it out and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body go into hell.(Matthew 5:27-20)

These passages shock us and leave us questioning because we know in our hearts the many ways we have fallen short of perfection, and how serious our righteousness (right-living) is to the Living God! 1 Corinthians 6:9-10 conveys further: “Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality, nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.”

Maybe you feel as I do sometimes: “Is there any hope for ME, then?”

The weight of our sin leaves us spiritually sick – out of energy – unproductive. We hate ourselves for continually failing to live up to these holy standards. Weighted down by guilt, we become listless and hurting, effecting every area of our spiritual lives.

So, here we sit… reminded of our tendency to sin AND how much God hates sin. Only in the pain of these realities (and how important it is that we feel it!) are our hearts tilled to realize some important, life-changing truths

Luke 7:36-50 tells a helpful story. I’d LOVE it (considering you have the time and freedom today) if you could OPEN your copy of the Scriptures instead of reading the text below; keeping your pencil nearby to underline and mark the parts of this record that are helpful, convicting, or encouraging.

Now one of the Pharisees was requesting Him (Jesus) to dine with him, and He (Jesus) entered the Pharisee’s house and reclined at the table. And there was a woman in the city who was a sinner; and when she learned that He was reclining at the table in the Pharisee’s house, she brought an alabaster vial of perfume, and standing behind Him at His feet, weeping, she began to wet His feet with her tears, and kept wiping them with the hair of her head, and kissing His feet and anointing them with the perfume. Now when the Pharisee who had invited Him saw this, he said to himself, “If this man were a prophet He would know who and what sort of person this woman is who is touching Him, that she is a sinner.” 
And Jesus answered him (Jesus answered his thoughts!), “Simon, I have something to say to you.” And he replied, “Say it, Teacher.” “A moneylender had two debtors: one owed five hundred denarii ($31,500 today roughly), and the other fifty ($3,150ish). “When they were unable to repay, he graciously forgave them both. So, which of them will love him more?” Simon answered and said, “I suppose the one whom he forgave more.” And He said to him, “You have judged correctly.” Turning toward the woman, He said to Simon, “Do you see this woman? I entered your house; you gave Me no water for My feet, but she has wet My feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. “You gave Me no kiss; but she, since the time I came in, has not ceased to kiss My feet. “You did not anoint My head with oil, but she anointed My feet with perfume. “For this reason I say to you, her sins, which are many, have been forgiven, for she loved much; but he who is forgiven little, loves little.” Then He said to her, “Your sins have been forgiven.” Those who were reclining at the table with Him began to say to themselves, “Who is this man who even forgives sins?” And He said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.”

Pop quiz to test your reading skills (especially the last eight words of this passage):

1. In order to be “saved” or forgiven, what did the woman need to have?

a. The willingness to waste valuable perfume

b. The boldness to come into the arrogant Pharisee’s house

c. A deep understanding of her horrific laundry list of past sins

d. Faith, or belief, that this Jesus could forgive her completely

2. What amazing gift did this woman receive from believing God’s forgiveness is real?

a. All consequences to her past sins erased

b. The promise of a life free of further temptation to sin

c. A new vial of expensive perfume

d. Peace for the turmoil of her soul

This is Lisa, part of Timberline Lodge's class of 2020! We chatted about this concept of forgiveness in women's class last week, and she made a "shrinky dink" (remember those?) with this amazing verse on it!

(d and d!) You see, we can all deeply relate to this “sinful woman.” Until we come to understand the great depths of our sinfulness, we feel no need to take such drastic measures as she did! Sometimes it takes the weight of our sin almost crushing us to get to the place where we can stop caring what people are seeing or saying of us, and come humbly to the feet of our Savior, in faith that He alone can help us.

The good news: God’s character does not ONLY consist of His holy perfection. If we turn the diamond of who He is and look from another angle, we readily discover a God of love, compassion, and grace.